Wednesday, August 29, 2007
It has been awhile since I have even had the urge to write anything. The past 2 months have been a couple of the hardest in a long time with the massive influx of energy causing every issue that needs clearing to surface. Trust issues, insecurity, pain and fear from the past. I have seen more than I wish to in the Astral plane, visions and scenarios of whats to come. Lessons that have already been learned being shown again for clarification. It has been a test to say the least. Every sense has been heightened, yet the ability to meditate with a clear mind has been next to impossible. Yet knowing when things are about to happen and then seeing them manifest and having no doubt about the outcomes is at times unsettling. It is beyond the typical 6th sense we always knew was there. I have decided to take time and clear what needs to be let go on deeper levels. Its something we all must do if we want to take the next step, the final leap into the unknown, the vulnerable space of oneness.
I AM in every way ready to deal with the past and face it all head on in order to be present in the now. I think of what it must be like for the normal person who still is awakening to deal with these things. I think about knowing everything I have learned and experienced in the higher levels of awareness and how much of a burden at times it seems to be. How hard it is sometimes to just simply be with the past issues that need to be released. I think of everything that is about to change in this world we find ourselves in, and how in order to do what needs to be done we need to release all the underlying issues if we are to face it head on with a clarity.
Sometimes I wonder why we are shown the things we are. And I can say I am beginning to understand it all now. That light that is so full of love and compassion and peace in a world of illusions that appears to be coming apart at the seams. The change that is supposed to be, the evolution of consciousness in a world that has been asleep for so long. I know that it is all part of the process, of the contract we made before we came back to this realm of existence. It is not just the karma and issues of this life we must make peace with and release, but of all our incarnations in this human shell.
So I sit back and I say so be it, bring it on. There is no better time than now. This time is 11:59 and I am ready to accept whatever may come. Whatever will be will be. I surrender to the void of the unknown and breathe in the familiarness of it all. Time to wake up and time to get on with it. This is what we have all been waiting for and I for one am ready.
Peace and Love